Eeeekk!!

I know, shoot me I haven't posted but whatever. Things have been so hectic lately. Now I'm going to be back on track...hopefully. I'm staying with my friend until homecoming, which hopefully is soon. Dear God please let it be soon, everybody is going insane waiting. I can't take this much longer, haha. Well there hasn't been much going on with me. Oh lord I think they are shooting off artillery. Go figure, they do this all the time down here. Ehhh..

As for babycakes, he's doing fine. Just awaiting his turn to come home. Feels like forever. I sent him a box, as funny as it is I decorated the box. He told me he loved it but he deffinately got shit for it when he opened it from the guys. Oh well guys, I love him an support him..go fcuk yourselfs. Bahaha :)

Well I guess I'm going to go an try to post later. koutttskkii*

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Its been awhile..

So its been quite awhile since I've posted. Alot has gone on but its pretty much mostly the same. I've got good news though about babycakes :)
So still I haven't been doing much. Texting friends, online alot, going out, doing some stuff, going here an there. The weather seems like its actually slowly looking up. Its still cold as ice out though. I seriously can't wait until summer. Word, is we might get block leave so during that time babycakes an I will be making our way to Cali :) Gimme a nice Cali tan, it'd be nice. Summer, bring it on I am deffinately ready. I just want some sort of warmth. I got some thing for babycakes first box. Its exciting.

Now for the update on babycakes. He seems like he's doing really good which makes me happy. Its going into the rainy season but they are looking at letting them come home very soon. I'd like to post when but OPSEC tells me I can't, sorry guys. Just know its really soon :) I guess Haiti isn't really what everyone expected it to be. They aren't really doing much, literally just kind of hanging out doing odd things an waiting to come home. It's okay guys its soon!! It's going to be really exciting. I told him to be ready to catch me because I am totally running an jumping. Thankfully, I don't have to worry about the Afghanistan deployment, certain reasons cut em from those orders an they were moved. THANK GOD!!! That's going to be one deployment I'm going to be nervous about.I honestly think we both will be. Other then just waiting for everything to be over in Haiti an they are allowed to go home he's doing really well.

My mom is looking to quit smoking finally. Now it's time to move, all of us. This isn't going to be pretty. She's going to be going through withdraws. She was put on meds for it so hopefully they don't make her flip out too much. I'm proud of her though, she's been smoking for the longest time. Both of my parents have actually, my dad made an attempt to quit but he went back to it, my mom has made a few good attempts to quit but certain things triggered her to go back to it. I'm pulling for her end though. As for my dad, he's not dead but he mise well be. He doesn't care or pay attention to anyone else but himself. In my opinion he needs to grow up.

This "Haiti deployment" has been an experience for both ends with us. On his end, it's been somewhere he's never been, an he's did things, made money, an pretty much got to do actual work so he's overall happy. He's just ready to come home an I don't blame him an neither does anyone else. As for me, well I kind of tried to take it as if he was in Iraq but I know it really wasn't anything like that. I talk to him when I can which I expected, an I have to send him packages which I again expected. I guess it's just because my other deployments I've endured was with my ex so its a new person this time, new place, new mission. He did well though an I'm very proud of him. Now for the other deployment is what like I said previously is nervous about. I guess we shall have to see how it's all planned out. Who knows I might just be in a different position.

Well I'm going to go do a few things an maybe I'll post again tonight but I wouldn't count on it. Deffinately going to try an post tomorrow atleast once though. Should have new news, but who knows. I'm just trying to get everything in an done before babycakes gets home :)

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Really? Wow.

So last night was good..kind of. It was superbowl Sunday an it was good the Saints won an I swear I want a dollar for everyone that pretty much tripped me up because they were a Colts fan. Haha. I was figuring yesterday wasn't a half bad day. I was getting off of the computer an babycakes signs in. I thought we were okay, boy was I wrong. He i/ms me telling me he "is a little upset with me". So of course I ask him why. He goes on to say about an incident that happened two nights ago that was insane. Of course my words get switched around on me an I get accused of talking about some chick I've never even met before! I couldn't pick her out of a crowd if I was paid to. I know her name, I've never met her husband so I wouldn't know what he looked like either. I said one thing about her an that was talking about a vehicle. Its so freakin dumb! Whatever. Then I felt stupid because at the end of the conversation he was like "well I can see your in a shitty mood I guess I'm gonna go now", WHAT?! ME, IN A BAD MOOD? Noooo, course not.Oh really, wonder where you got that idea from, I pretty much felt attacked but I guess he was just kind of telling me what was being said an where he sat on it, which is understandable. Guess he wasn't that upset at me. Anyways moving on..


I guess we'll just have to see what happens today. I get stuck cleaning the house..again. My mom has the day off an she just left for the day, thats stupid too but thats an occuring thing for her. Now I'm just listening to music, kind of making an attempt to watch Reba an on the computer..story of my life haha. I hope today goes better then I expect it to. Guess we shall have to see. My life is just one rollercoaster ride after another. Guess I'll get off here an deffinately post later.

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Ugghh.. such a morning so far...

So it's been quite the morning so far. Mr. Save-a-cent, has been banging on what seems to sound like the freakin ceiling of the basement. Our floor of the bedroom was shaking, waking everyone up all hours of the freakin morning. Grrr an such. So I figured around 10:45 it was time for me to roll over an get up. I was surprisingly warm last night an this morning wrapped up in my babycakes big zip up hoodie, with the hood up an big camo sweatpants. It was very nice. Anyways, I get up an my sister is still asleep, hmm..okay. Well I go out to get on the computer an the computer got accidently locked during shut down mode last night. My sister is the only one who has that password bc it was on her account during shut down. So I had to wait, thinking babycakes wasn't getting on until later on I thought I had time for my sister to get up an sign on..boy was I WRONG!! Not to long after I turn on the computer an I'm sitting in front of the sign on screen, looking at it aimlessly, does my phone go off with a text message with babycakes facebook status update. Fantastic...lets go morning! Now I'm constantly stalking my facebook chat window haha.

Snow, snow go away, we've had enough of you an I'm done being freezing all the time. :) thanks! If your curious..it's started again. Ugghh..whatever. So I woke up with this incrediably annoying headache. Its really been a real good morning for me so far..can't ya tell? Ha! So now I'm posting, facebooking, an listening to music. Lets see what else this day as in store for me.

Story. Of. My. Life.

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Its about 7:41...

An I've done just about nothing this whole day. It's still snowing, an still freezing as ice! Ughhh.. Well on the better side of things I talked to babycakes :) Hes good as always. Makes me happy. I've seen my sister flip out over stupid things since she didn't have to work, an then I took a shower. Got out an talked to a friend I haven't in a while. That's pretty much been my day. Now I'm on here, Facebooking an listening to music..ehh whatever haha.

Oh so I actually got to the bottom of this whole Panama City trip for babycakes. Its a team deal, eh go figure lol. If hes happy an wants to go then there's nothing I can do. I'm happy for him, they deserve to go on a nice trip an have fun after all that Haitian adventure. Lol, its okay though. We'll make the best of the time we have. Still hoping we get some sort of leave time when they get back. That'd be FANTASTIC!! WOOTT!!! :D I guess we'll see. Hehe. Hopefully after his guard shift he'll get online then we'll chat it up. He's such the love of my lifeee!!!

So I read the most amazing news article this afternoon. A freakin' 11 year old girl gave birth to a baby boy. I'm happy for her I am, it's a living, breathing, eating human being. It's still shocking to me though, that it happened. As an 11 year old you deffinately shouldn't be out having sex or even thinking about having sex. For god sakes your 11 years old! Its insane to even think about. You should be worrying about school, skinned knees, an acting like a child. Its amazing how the generation has changed. Yes I probably don't have much room to talk but when I was younger (11-) we deffinately weren't worrying about having sex I can tell you that much. I've seen what a child can do to a family at a young age. I've seen my step-sister go through something similiar, actually she dropped out of the 8th grade to have my nephew, tried to go back in the 10th grade, made it through then dropped out her Junior an Senior year. Went an got her GED then got pregnant again. Children at that young of an age can do some pretty good damage. Some families can handle it an then some families, pretty much 95% of those families fall under. It's a difficult thing to deal with. Time to talk to children at a age as young as 11? Looks like it, an seems so.

I guess as being as young as I am, that story kind of made me look at my life. I'm no saint by any means. I've seen things a 19 year old really shouldn't of. I've been put through hell growing up. My parents are divorced, an have been since I was little (3 years old), I have been back an forth for so long with living with my dad, then living with my mom. I have two younger sisters an they've been through it as well (still currently going through it). I've witnessed ridiculous things, some uncalled for an some amazing. My life is one big rollercoaster. I'm not going to sit here an say that it's the worst possible thing ever, but I wouldn't put any blessings on it either.

I've lost friends, an gain many. I guess its just going to be one rollercoaster ride after another lol. All I know is even as complicated as it really all is I wouldn't give my life up for another one ever. I love the people in my life, an thats just the way it is. One big italian, loud, obnoxious family :)

With this post though, I'm leaving it with these words that Michael an I say together but it'd fit it perfectly.

Some people's fucking kids.

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Really?!

I hate this weather!!! I can't freaking stand it anymore!
The last week everyone has been out of school.
The ice, the snow, the freakin cold!! I hate the cold!
I'd pretty much like to scream at this point, haha.
Mr. fuckin Save-a-cent, likes to cut wood in the basement right under my bedroom at 6:30 in the dag on morning! Who the hell does that?! REALLY?! Ugh, whatever.

I guess I'm really just ready for babycakes to come back from Haiti. It's nice to hear from him an all but nothing beats him here with me. Damn earthquake. I am proud of him though, an he's doing what he can an as fast as he can to get home. Then this Panama City team trip deal, I think everyone has the same open-minded question as I do, Are we allowed to go with? It'd make sense if we weren't but there was nothing saying he couldn't...unless he just didn't tell me. I don't have no freakin clue.

I must give it to my exhusband though for leaving me with nothing an then waking me up at all crackass hours of the morning, trying to talk to me. I DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY TO YOU!!!! Leave me alone, kaythanksbye. Really. I love how I'm just pushed to the back an second best with that man. I expect it now, but it was the same way through our marriage. He's moved on an so have I, no need to play back memories an talk to me about em. I don't feel any different then when we called it quits. I'm happy we are through, I couldn't stand you anyways. You kept me locked up in our house, all the time. You did nothing for me but drive me to my wits ends! WE ARE THROUGH...game over.

Okay I guess I'm done complaining. I'm just sick of it all. Yes there's days I'm fine an I'm having a really good day..not today, not right now. I'm going to go cuddle up with my blankets, eat cereal, an watch movies. Snow day :)

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